Thursday, November 13, 2008


I was down and depressed recently. I wrestled with a bout of food poisoning after eating a bad chicken sandwich at the airport. I don't remember feeling so sick, since I had my appendix removed when I was 10. I was in South Carolina on a 3 day application installation for Sun Belt rentals. I showed up at the client site sick and disoriented. Luckily they were not prepared for the install so this game me a chance to go back to the hotel and get some rest. I slept for about 21 hours, waking only once trying to explain to my project manager why I was not at the customer site. I sounded drunk and incoherent and had not control over that, even though I remember slurring my words. The following day I arrived at the client site a little late, still feeling the ill affects of the food poisoning but much better than the previous day. While doing the install, I overheard the customer call me "incompetent". I have been called a lot of things in my life, but this was a new low for me. Depressed and feeling down, I turned to the Lord. I read Isaiah chapter 37.
Isaiah 37:3
"Today is a day of trouble, insults, and disgrace. It is like when a child is ready to be born, but the mother has no strength to deliver the baby."
How can I question my faith when the Lord delivers a message like the above verse? For the Lord my God seems to answer me ALWAYS. Praise His name.

Monday, November 10, 2008


I found myseld reading 1 John Chapter 4 on the plane ride home last week. I was reading the book "Ragamuffin Gospel" by Brennan Manning and read a section with this verse in it:
1 John 4:18
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."
I opened my bible and searched for this verse. Soon after some study in 1 John Chapter 4 I landed in Austin. Flying in earlier than expected, I was able to make it to Youth Group, where I was a small group leader before I started traveling for work. Mark, the youth pastor, was teaching as usual. Toward the end of his teachings this evening, he started to cry. He explained to the students how difficult it is to understand  how God is a loving and forgiving God. God is not angry or disciplinary, he taught. God is Love, Mark said with great excitement. I met with Mark after the session and told him how I was studying 1 John chapter 4 on the plane ride home that day. I quoted verse 16 to him.
1 John 4:16
"We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love. God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them."
Mark read verses 16-21 then passed the bible back to me. Tearful yet smiling he calmly said "Oh, it's just a coincidence that you read that just today" His blatant sarcasm stirred the reply in me of "You mean Godincidence"

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


I am flying home today. I have made a habit out of reading my bible on the plane. I recently observed that when I read the bible people avoid looking my way. There is open seating on Southwest airlines and the middle seat next to me frequently stays empty. I have heard it said to not talk about politics and religion, which is sad because it hinders spreading the Gospel message.

Today I opened my bible to Isaiah it reads:

Isaiah 61:1
"The Spirit of the sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor"

I have been praying recently for my "Shoulder the Cross" ministry. This verse really puts things in perspective for me. I questioned my own morality this week with some gift cards. Verse 8 says

Isaiah 61:8
"For I, the LORD, love justice. I hate robbery and wrongdoing. I will faithfully reward my people for their suffering and make an everlasting covenant with them."

This verse speaks to immorality. When the devil places impure thoughts in my head, it is verses like this that help keep me strong minded and moral.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Answered Prayer

Sleeping soundly, I suddenly imagine myself at a Soccer game in Manchester England. Finally realizing it is my Manchester United Calypso ring tone, alerting me of a text from my wife, I opened my eyes and glanced at my phone hoping the text would not be bad news. My wife never bothers me this late, I feared the worst. The text was brief, it read "Are you awake? Can you call me?" My fears climaxed as I dialed the number to the house. "All your fish are dead" she reported. The 15 inch Oscar named Prozac was floating along with about 15 other large aggressive tropical fish. I ran through the fish names in my head, shadow, Jerry, Blue Stallion. My wife then reports that one fish survived the obvious lack of oxygen in the 125 gallon tank. I love my fish and reports they are dead really has me down. I have a hard time getting back to sleep that night. I turned to the Lord … "Our Father, who art in heaven" I prayed. Giving up on a losing battle, I turn the light on and open my bible. I turned to Psalm 120
I took my troubles to the Lord; I cried out to him, and he answered my prayer.
What a perfect message for this time in my life. Last Sunday I took my troubles to the Lord. I applied for a different role and I felt almost black listed. My phone calls for follow-up were ignored and emails I sent were not responded to. I felt like this was a personality problem on my part. I read on in Psalm 120 and see more and more how this fits in my life at this time:
Rescue me, O Lord, from liars and from all deceitful people. deceptive tongue, what will God do to you?
I am thankful to my Lord for His answered prays in my troubled times.